Truly and deeply, I have always believed that we are our biggest enemy, and everything boils down to 'ATTITUDE.'
It's just not a secret that when your attitude changes, everything else changes for the better.
Looking at my situation,
I thought I could rejoin my husband for good, but it was short-lived and I have to come back to Malaysia...
And on the sideline, there were so many challenges, misunderstanding, discouragement and confusion, caused by people who matter...
But by the end of the day, my husband and I knew that this was the right decision, for me to be back for now.
So, how does one deal with been woken up from a beautiful three months of experiencing togetherness with your husband (after 5 years of LDR and you thought it would be over), been thrown back to a school that had kinda given you a send off, and been allocated all 'weak classes'...
Mopping definitely would get me no where.
Thus, I chose to make the best out of my situation... and wouldn't have wanted it any other way...
Never would I have imagined the huge contrast between my teaching life now, and three years back. I mean, I am still teaching in the same school, with the same colleagues, so how different could it be?
For starters, I am not focusing on teaching upper forms anymore (which was what I had been doing for the past few years - preparing students for SPM).. They only gave me one Form 5 class in which I became the class teacher too...
Second, I am teaching 4 lower form classes which are involved in PBS (which I had no clue at all).
Third, I am teaching 2 classes of Asli students - as in two classes of only Asli students.
There was just no time for self-pity or doubt, it was all about diving in, and making sure it was a strong dive. And soon, I find myself doing something I should have been doing for the past 3 years - falling in love with teaching.
Don't get me wrong, I have always loved teaching and it IS my first choice. And although I do conduct creative projects and lessons for my students, I also stumbled with the balance of getting them to pass and actually teaching them the language. But this year, because I was given classes with 'low expectations to pass', I was able to focus on motivating them to learn this scary, foreign language - which is a situation I find myself very blessed to be in!
And as I look for ways to get extra resources for my students, I was hugely encouraged and inspired by so many generous givers out there. Many of whom I have lost contact with, be it relatives, friends, and also acquaintances from all over the world. It really cheers me up knowing that there are many people who cares about education and are willing to be a part of your effort - no matter how big or small they are.
Wonders from social media (if put to good use), I get so many packages delivered to me in my school that it gets so much interest lol.
so much so that I have more than enough stuff for my Asli kids (there are even more not shown in the pictures above) that I started distributing these awesome goodies to other students I deem deserving or needed that extra boost of encouragement.
To all you wonderful people, no amount of thanks is enough, but you have my word that I will make sure these go to the right kids for the right reasons :)
My title of the blog is about new obsession...
So what am I currently obsessed about?
Yup, you read it right. Bahasa Temiar!
My little teachers, (mark the 's') have been very patient and excited about teaching me their language. I would probably be generous and teach you guys some of it on my next entry ;)
YEAK SAYEK MAHAK!